The way they were kissing disgusted me. They were each chewing on the other's lips in a way reminiscent to that of someone masticating a particularly touch steak. Their facial expressions, like those of the steak chewer, was one of extreme concentration, with a hint of boredom on the edges, the eternal wondering of 'when will this end?'
Think of the 'Masticator', if you will, as a modern day 'Thinker', whose the 'Thinker' is bound to his rock, forever seeking enlightenment, so the 'Masticator' is bound to his chair, forever seeking to finish his mouthful. So were the couples sentiments toward each other, two people bound to each other, forever seeking true love and unable to find it in the inadequate arms of their partner.
Surely, I thought as they embraced one another stiffly, rather than love they'd be better off seeking contentment, which is both easier to obtain and far more pleasing.
Thursday, 20 October 2011
Sunday, 16 October 2011
Stray -1
It had been raining the day she died.
It was a romantic sort of death, a gradual fading away. A pallor that settle over her skin, a loss of interest in what was around her, a loss of her mind.
By the end she was an animated statue of cold pearly grey. And then she died.
It had been raining on the day of her interment.
Her parents had chosen the word, put it on the top of the notice tat was posted on the Parish church's noticeboard, and the village newspaper and the front of the little booklets with the order of service:
Interment of Jessica Ann Lewis
Saturday, January 1st 20—
They’d asked him to speak, too.
He’d declined.
It had been raining the day he left.
The perpetual rain, the pain of the last half a year of watching the girl he loved die had shown on the car he drove.
It was not a bad car, nor was it a particularly old one.
But he had forgotten it as he took her out for walks, trying to get he to see the beauty of the village that she had once shown him.
Trying to get her to admire the living green that crawled over the grey stone that made up almost every building in their little village.
She wouldn’t, couldn’t.
His car had been left to sink into the soggy, mossy ground; the pain to chip; the body to rust around the edges, becoming a sunset orange that she once would have loved.
He’d gone to the wake, for the briefest time, to say goodbye to all the people she had known.
They were people who had never liked him. Who had mistrusted, despised and shunned him, but they appreciated that he had loved her as just as keenly as and more desperately than they had done, and so they let their bad feelings and ill feeling get buried when Jessica was, and they said goodbye to him with real warmth and a desire to see him again.
He had left in his sunset car that night.
He drove through the dark, through the rain, drove till he was clear through the other side of both.
Daybreak brought a sunrise that begged to be committed to a canvas.
It was one of the many thousands of things she would once have loved.
It was a Sunday.
He found a church.
It was a Catholic church, with a noticeboard advertising the times of Mass.
He parked his car under the board and went in, two full hours before the first Mass started.
It was beautiful inside. An opulent and decadent gift of adoration to the Lord Jesus they all loved.
He had only been inside one church before; the stone and moss church of Jessica’s hometown, and that only to please her. Only because she was by his side.
He had never been a Godly man, but he had admired God when he had seen Him in inside of Jessica. He loved the capacity for love God gave her, the boundless joy, the constant wonder at the beauty of the green and grey and town she had known all her life.
He had not believed it when she had said God had given those qualities her. He had scoffed.
He believed it now.
He stayed for all four masses.
He sat at the front, with his head down, listening to everything that passed with a heavy sort of emptiness in his heart.
He left at sundown, carried on driving east.
It was a romantic sort of death, a gradual fading away. A pallor that settle over her skin, a loss of interest in what was around her, a loss of her mind.
By the end she was an animated statue of cold pearly grey. And then she died.
It had been raining on the day of her interment.
Her parents had chosen the word, put it on the top of the notice tat was posted on the Parish church's noticeboard, and the village newspaper and the front of the little booklets with the order of service:
Interment of Jessica Ann Lewis
Saturday, January 1st 20—
They’d asked him to speak, too.
He’d declined.
It had been raining the day he left.
The perpetual rain, the pain of the last half a year of watching the girl he loved die had shown on the car he drove.
It was not a bad car, nor was it a particularly old one.
But he had forgotten it as he took her out for walks, trying to get he to see the beauty of the village that she had once shown him.
Trying to get her to admire the living green that crawled over the grey stone that made up almost every building in their little village.
She wouldn’t, couldn’t.
His car had been left to sink into the soggy, mossy ground; the pain to chip; the body to rust around the edges, becoming a sunset orange that she once would have loved.
He’d gone to the wake, for the briefest time, to say goodbye to all the people she had known.
They were people who had never liked him. Who had mistrusted, despised and shunned him, but they appreciated that he had loved her as just as keenly as and more desperately than they had done, and so they let their bad feelings and ill feeling get buried when Jessica was, and they said goodbye to him with real warmth and a desire to see him again.
He had left in his sunset car that night.
He drove through the dark, through the rain, drove till he was clear through the other side of both.
Daybreak brought a sunrise that begged to be committed to a canvas.
It was one of the many thousands of things she would once have loved.
It was a Sunday.
He found a church.
It was a Catholic church, with a noticeboard advertising the times of Mass.
He parked his car under the board and went in, two full hours before the first Mass started.
It was beautiful inside. An opulent and decadent gift of adoration to the Lord Jesus they all loved.
He had only been inside one church before; the stone and moss church of Jessica’s hometown, and that only to please her. Only because she was by his side.
He had never been a Godly man, but he had admired God when he had seen Him in inside of Jessica. He loved the capacity for love God gave her, the boundless joy, the constant wonder at the beauty of the green and grey and town she had known all her life.
He had not believed it when she had said God had given those qualities her. He had scoffed.
He believed it now.
He stayed for all four masses.
He sat at the front, with his head down, listening to everything that passed with a heavy sort of emptiness in his heart.
He left at sundown, carried on driving east.
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